佩欣學姐 一路好走

2008年9月12日 星期五

在我大三的那年，易老師實驗室的成員就是博班俞融、仁佑，碩班阿亮，大學部專題生就是藤吉楊、孟桓、方勤、光頭、還有我，以及實驗室帳務助理佩欣學姐。我依然還記得我每次去實驗室打開410門的時候第一眼見到的就是佩欣背對著門口正在用伺服器處理實驗室開銷的事，她每次都會很親切的回過頭來打招呼聊天，完全是令人感覺沒有壓力、很舒服的一個女生。大家在實驗室開講的時候也因為她的存在輕鬆很多。

我還知道這份工作是俞融介紹給她的，因為聽說她上大學沒跟家裡拿過錢，所以報帳的工作算是貼補一點生活開支。

隨後她也順利在中央拿到學位，而上一次見面是一年半前中央物理主辦物理年會的那次寒假，我們實驗室的成員還圍一圈在管二館前面講話講了滿久，感覺真的很好。

我沒有想到今天一早起床接到的第一個消息，就是學姐已經走了。

胸口揪了那麼一下之後，一直到現在都很悶，是一種好像胸口有一塊沈重的石頭放在上面的感受，我很不舒服。到現在我點開我們實驗室許久沒有翻修的網頁，就好像回到兩年前剛進AMSLAB的那時候一樣記憶猶新。還是很不曉得該怎麼接受這樣的事情，身邊的朋友請不要就這樣走了，實在是不知所措...。佩欣，希望妳在另一個世界能夠 living in peace.

點播的是 Camera Obscura 的 Country Mile。

Silver Birch against a Swedish sky
The singer in the band made me want to cry
We’re all inside our own heads now
We are leaving new friends
leaving this town
I wish you could be here with me
I would show you off like a trophy
The road it winds, it twists, it turns, oh my stomach burns

Once again I’ll be the foolish one
Thinking a blink of these lashes would make you come
Don’t you worry, don’t get in a state
I don’t believe in true love anyway
Who’s being pessimistic now
I could document this as our first, as our last row
The more you look forlorn, the more to you I warm.

I won’t be seeing you for a long while
Oh I hope it’s not as long as these country miles
I feel lost, I feel lost.

No I wont be seeing you for a long while
Oh I hope its not as long as these country miles
I feel lost, i feel lost.

No I wont be seeing you for a long while
I hope its not as long as these country miles
I feel lost, I feel lost.

No i wont be seeing you for a long while
I hope its not as long as these country miles
I feel lost,
I feel lost,
I feel lost,
I got lost.